I’m seriously too nice.
There’s a mouse in my house and I know I can’t kill it without it suffering. So here I am waiting for it to climb out my window or down outta my window.
Why do I have to be such a girly girl when it comes to things like this!
My brother left for basic today.
Our relationship hasn’t been the greatest considering the fact that I dated two of his close friends. Today though, I think he finally realized that no matter how much bullshit we’ve put each other through, I will always be his big sister.
The one thing I regret not doing today is that I should have hugged him longer.
I have no idea when or if he will come home again. We’ve been there for each other, whether we liked it or not, through everything that life has thrown at either of us. It was hard walking out of the lobby and into the elevators.
I’m not there to give him advice or congratulate him on his achievements. I’m not there to make sure he’s safe. That’s really hard for me considering we’ve been close. I’m also not there just to be there and sit with him and have silly conversations. That’s what I will miss the most. Staying up late with him watching youtube or playing video games.
There are so many things that I’m going to miss about him. Those things will probably be so different when he gets back.
He’s going to be a man when he gets home. If he comes home.
I know my parents are having a rough time with it too, but I feel like my best friend left on a trip and when he gets back he’ll be a changed person. I didn’t think I would have such a hard time with this. Don’t get me wrong! I am so unbelievably proud of him for what he’s going to accomplish, its just hard for me to let him go.
I’d really just like a lingering hug and a shoulder to cry on and probably alcohol. Of the strong proof preferably.
YOU KNOW YOURE IN TOO DEEP WHEN YOU PICTURE YOURSELF SNUGGLING IN BED NEXT TO THEM OR WHEN YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING FUN AND WISH THEY WERE THERE TO SHARE THAT MOMENT WITH YOU OR THE WORST IS WHEN YOU SEE SOMETHING AND THINK OH THEY WOULD LIKE THAT